I Wonder...

 ²³ “Truly^[f] I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. ²⁴ Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. 
                                                                                         Mark 11:23-24


Often times, when I'm faced with one thing or another, I hear myself say, "I wonder" or "I don't know how." 


"I wonder everything will work out."


"I don't know where that money will come from."


"I wonder if anyone will take me seriously, I'm only 23."


"I don't know how we will make all the loose ends meet."


The word wonder is the noun form means, "A feeling of puzzlement or doubt" and in the verb form it means, "To be filled with curiosity or doubt."


I start so many sentences and face so many mountains in life with doubt and I don't even realize it! 


Now, there have been past circumstances and trials in my life that I know cause me to doubt God's goodness and provision in my life. My past explains why I feel as I do, but it is not a reason to stay in bondage to my fear and doubt. God is our Provider-Jehovah Jireh. 


It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.  
                                                                                          Galatians 5:1


Today, I'm making a change in vocabulary as well as a change in heart. I am going to take hold of the FREEDOM that Christ paid so heavily for. I'm not going to be held back by the fear or doubt that God (Jehovah-Jireh) will not provide the things that I need. I'm going to step out in Faith trusting Him to work out all things for good regardless of what happens. 

²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[e]? 
                                                                                     Matthew 6:25-27


²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[i] have been called according to his purpose.
                                                                                          Romans 8:28


This past week, God has been speaking to me and challenging me to step out in Faith and move forward in a new direction-to "Do Something." Naturally as I began to really think about this new movement, I began to wonder. And the theme that constantly plays in my head is, "I wonder where I'm going to get the resources." Whether that be money, materials, people, or the prayer to back up the project, I am always wondering. And it's usually in this phase of dreaming and moving in faith that people become paralyzed and just give up all together. In John 6, Christ performs one of the most amazing miracles that shows us if we give Him what little we have, He will turn it into something HUGE. He is our resource. So today, I'm offering up all that I've got and trusting Him fully to finish the good work He's starting and to be my provider (Jehovah-Jireh).


³ I thank my God every time I remember you. ⁴ In all my prayers for all of you, I always praywith joy ⁵ because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, ⁶ being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
                                                                                     Philippians 1:3-6